writers block

Today started without addiction in my thought today,

Freedom from hell

an escape with hard fought with tears

And over coming fears

as the awareness nears,..

I’m almost afraid to cheer.

Overcoming this shit should not be my career

I want to scream to all far and near

That I am now here !!!

And hear me now,

Because I have gone through that door

I have turned my back for now and ever more

Listen, you may be bored

And heard it all before

But I tell you I need you now more

More, than I have ever, ever before

Through that door, I will not go back

Like a man that has survived a heart attack

I am stiff and scared and need you to have my back

I need you to assist

I insist I am not full of bliss

I know I can’t miss

As long as you can persist, ....In your love and support for me.

You never before had it out for me.

You were always there for me.

And now I need you more than just for me.

You see,

I woke up without addiction on my soul today

It’s like I have never told you

How much I love you

Even though all I seem to do is shit upon you

My soul stirs when I’m near you

I can once again be strong for you

I woke up without addiction on my spirit today

Happiness so near

And confidence so far

I have never before been so near

And you my dear have never been so far

I can’t do it alone so please come here

Don’t say its to late, you’re not that far, ... away from me

Away from me,

You are so Far away from me,

I see its too late for you, and me

But not for me, you see

I woke up without addiction in my heart today.

A heart that I now see is like a piece of used dental floss

I was on too much sauce

to feel the loss

and I swear and cross,.... my hear and hope to die

that you cat again rely

on my love for you

and to again be true to you

yes my dear, . . . I see it now to be true.

that what once was me and you

is now me, . with-out you

today I woke up without addiction, and

today, my dear, I woke up without you