8 ( good life)

And the monster has been good

Playing by the rules

staying in its own lane

coloring inside the lines

and the host is doing okay

keeping things under control

staying balanced

so why then the thoughts of self harm?

life is better, ..... but

more happy than not , ..... but

have people in my life , ..... but

spirit is strong , ..... but

why is there always a "BUT"!!!

why not accept 

accept the good life.

"good life"

That's a funny phrase

this all encompassing vagueness

that everyone seems to be striving for

even those that are waiting around to go to heaven

are looking for the good life

good life

some people say

"he has a good life"

but, ...

Can anyone really have a good life?

All the problems

all the stress

all the misunderstandings

and the thoughts that bombard

and the feelings that start,..

and the monster gains some strength

and the monster starts to color outside the lines.

almost imperceptible to the host, that slightest defiance of the monster.

But, .... life is better when the monster is controlled

but,  ...  People in my life help  me control the monster

but,.... my spirit is strong and now sees the monster is trying, again

but, this time I see it before the monster gets to strong

and, this time I see 

the good in my life, before the monster tries to destroy it.