so I can let them go...
its like I am half awake and half asleep as i feel the evil in my room
pining me down
pushing on my heart as if trying to push it out through my back.
then I become aware of the energy
the pure evil that is upon me
and I feel trapped and frozen and can not move
helpless to defend myself
I lay there while life is slowly sucked out of me.
I had only wished that just before i succumb to death
I could scream
scream loud
loud enough to wake the dead
I wish that I could have screamed loud enough to wake me!
I wish that I could have focused my pure innocent energy, to come to my defense.
I wish I had defiance
defiance like never felt before,
defiance never shown before,
and I wish I could peel its grip from my throat as I burn its body with my eyes and exhale a white light incinerating it
but instead it grabs hold of my throat controlling me
killing me
pushing on my heart as if trying to push it out of me
trying to smother me.
and helplessly
but momentarily
I allowed them to kill me
