Man up

and the boy,
did not know what to do..
so he let his body shake
he let the tears and snot empty his mind and he lost control

lost control of his senses
lost control of his thoughts
lost control and let his emotions be free

he in absolute emotional crisis was a blank slate,
 ready to take any advice
ready to gain control but did not know how,

he did not know what to do

and his dog equally upset, tried to console, but only made things worse

his dad hearing the whaling from the boy and the barking from his dog

 comes into the room, and sees his son in such a chaotic state,
It takes him a few minutes to figure out what has happened,
the boys tears and snot muffled his words
the dogs continual barking and whining adds to the fear
adds to the confusion
adds to the powerlessness


the parent shoos the boys dog out of the room.
and then not knowing what to do, the dad, takes parenting advice from the media, gives the boy advice that will set the boy on a path of destruction.

the dad tells this little boy, with emotions run rampant
this sensitive, intuitive, boy bound for greatness

this boy in a vulnerable state
ready to gain control but not knowing how.


the dad tells this boy
"don't let them get to you,"
"push your emotions down"
and he says it,
without a hug,
without a consoling phrase
without a word of compassion

the message is delivered.both by words and example.." push your emotions down"

and the boy open,
vulnerable and desperately needing affection,
but with no one in the room to give it.

the boy inhales the words, deep into his core,

and  the little boy tired of feeling
feeling scared
feeling alone
and most of all..
feeling unloved
did push his emotions down.

a year later,
one afternoon,
the boy was told by his dad that the family was going out to dinner,
the boy asks " where is my dog?"
his dad said, "..as you know she was getting really sick, we had to put her to sleep today."  the dad continued
"we are leaving for the restaurant in 15 minutes."

this dog was the boys confidant,
pulled him on his skateboard

this dog was the boy's best friend
she consoled him when he couldn't push the emotions down
she loved him.
and he loved her,...

the boy went upstairs to get into different clothes, and with less than 15 minutes,
there was no time for grief
there was no time for sorrow
there was no time for emotions
the past year in training of pushing emotions down has now paid off,

the boy was ready in 15 minutes and no discussion of the dog was ever had.
no tears were shed
no sorrow expressed
no longing to pet her,....

she will never kiss his face, again ,....

and there was, not any talk of  emptiness felt with her gone.

with no emotions there is no reason to talk

With no emotions     There    is           just             silence