show begins

In setting the stage
we see through the audience's eyes and make ready
and clean
and paint
and plan
and just before the show begins the funk is cleared from our eyes

and we see very clearly we are not ready for the show
we see very clearly what the audience is about to see
the chaos
the mess
the clutter
the pain
the sadness
the drifting with no purpose

we vow when the perfomance has ran its weeklong run
we will do better
and clean the mess
and not clutter
and not be in pain or sad

and now the week over we are sad
and feel pain
loss
sadness
like we have no purpose

so we have no energy to clean the mess or clear the clutter.
so we hide from ourselves until the next performance when we will

see through the audiences eyes, and not our cloudy depressed pair.